Monday, May 31, 2010

And the waves they came a'crashing


So I'm training for a triathlon. Just a sprint--I'm a novice swimmer and biker--but a triathlon none-the-less. Three sports (although my husband would argue with the accuracy of using the word sport to describe running, biking, and swimming, but he's kind of a sports snob) performed back-to-back. The triathlon I chose is in Wisconsin, which strikes me as being rather ironic since I just wrote that I'm trying to embrace physical activity in Virginia. The event is a 500 yard swim followed by a 16 mile bike and a 3.1 mile run. The bike and the run I feel good about. 16 miles on a bike is not too difficult and I am coming off the heels of a half-marathon so the 3.1 run shouldn't be a problem. The swim is what worries me: it's open water (insert Jaws theme here).

I've only been swimming for about a year. I started when I was pregnant with Ben and found it to be great exercise. The huge belly I was sporting provided nice buoyancy. After taking some time off (about 8 months) to deal with an impossible infant, I picked it up again a couple of weeks ago. I am SUPER slow, but my endurance has improved drastically. I have been swimming much more than 500 yards in a pool, but my sports mentor Becky suggested getting some swim time in the bay, as "open water swimming is a little different than pool swimming". Wow. Is it ever.

Today marked my first attempt at open water swimming. I was extremely apprehensive about it--I'm not huge on swimming in places where I can't see the bottom do to my irrational fear of being bit by something. (Can you imagine swimming along, minding your own business and suddenly feeling something nibbling at your feet?) Anyway, I knew I had to get in there regardless of my fear so I took the plunge. Or rather tip-toed in--the bay is COLD at this time of the year! Finally, after standing waist-deep for 5 minutes with my goggles on and being stared at by the locals walking their dogs, I went under. The frigidity of the water took my breath away! Which doesn't help when you are swimming, so when I started I was already out of breath. Then there were the waves, which looked small from the sand but when trying to swim through them are actually much more of an obstacle than you'd think. Picture The Perfect Storm. My crawl stroke, which I've been so proud at having worked up to 40+ lengths at the pool, lasted for all of 1 minute before I switched to survival mode and began a timid breast stroke. After 10 minutes of this I turned around and attempted crawling again. It was easier with the waves at my back, but I still never got comfortable in the water and felt panicky and out of breath. 20 minutes of this and I stood up and walked up on the sand.

My husband, Kevin, was at the beach with the two boys (an aside: how wonderful is that? I would NEVER want to take the both of them to the beach by myself but he does it ALL the time AND brings the dog! What a father.). After recounting my difficulties to him, he offered the encouraging reminder that most triathlon swims are performed in open water and if I want to get serious about competing in them I had better get used to the waves. And then he tripped me and I fell face-first in the sand. Well, not really but his comment, albeit true, definitely left me feeling deflated.

So what lessons do I learn from this, one of my first attempts at embracing the bay? First, and this seems to be a recurring theme for me: I need to remember not to think too highly of my abilities. As 1 Corinthians 4:7 says, "For who makes you different from anyone else? What do you have that you did not receive? And if you did receive it, why do you boast as if you did not?" Although I do not express it to others, I often find myself feeling smug, even prideful, over whatever perceived athletic abilities I have. If there is one quality in others I detest, it is pride. Yet it is a sin I find myself guilty of far too often. It's happened in running and now with swimming. And it's completely unwarranted. I swim in a pool with an abnormally high geriatric population, and I am lapped by many of them! So obviously I am no Michael Phelps. I need to remember that all of my strengths and abilities come from God. HE is the source, not myself. I need to be grateful for the ability and opportunity I have to swim, not prideful.

Second, and maybe it's not a lesson, but I learned that I am capable of facing down my fears. I was and still am wary, if not fearful, of the bay, but I took the plunge and will likely do so again (because, let's face it. If I'm going to compete in that triathlon I pretty much HAVE to go back in there or I may drown the day of! Not a good inaugural start to triathloning.) It is important to be able to do this, especially in raising kids. Just today we were in our neighbor's pool (see how blessed we are? We have FREE ACCESS to these people's pool!) and I urged Jack, who was obviously fearful of the water, to jump in. He faced his fears and did. And had a great time. Knowing that I am able to face my own trials gives me the authority to urge my children to do the same.

And finally, even if I am not a fan right now of swimming in it, I hold out hope that the bay may grow on me. The water was cool and refreshing, even if it was murky. And I thoroughly enjoyed my post-swim run in the surf, even if they salt bothered my skin. Eventually I didn't even notice this fact. Hey, I am making progress...here's to hope!

Saturday, May 29, 2010

To blog or not to blog




Ok, I caved. I started my own blog. It seemed like the next step in life: go to school, get married, have kids, write a blog. So I am getting in touch with my inner-lemming and doing what I believe the masses are doing.

Problem is, the masses (at least the mass that I am in contact with) all seem to have things to blog about. Interesting things (living out kids' lit), unique things (Chinese adoptions), heart-felt things (year-long deployments away from the family). What topic could I write on that would possibly hold any interest for others? As a married middle-class SAHM (stay-at-home-mom) of two small children, my life is anything but extraordinary. On the contrary, I am subsisting purely in the ordinary and trying to see it as that and not as mundane.

As ordinary as I feel, however, I know I am blessed: I am a child of God. I have been created by Him in His image. "For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother's womb." (Psalm 139:12-14) Surely, then, I have been created with a set of characteristics or circumstances unique to me; God did not create us as clones of one another but as individuals.

It was in pondering this that I began to really think about the unique way in which God created me--my tastes, interests, dreams, those sorts of things. A few things stuck out: first, I love nature. Not any old natural setting--I don't think I would enjoy the desert (for some reason I have Sex and the City II on the brain--I did not see it but have heard several reviews recently. Doesn't make any sense: Sex in the City...in the desert. Hmmm...). I do, however, love the woods. And mountains. And lakes. And rivers. Especially rivers. Were I to live at the top of a wooded mountain next to a running river I would be eternally blissful. Nature. So there's that.

Secondly, I love working out. Not in a treadmill/elliptical/gym way, but in a running/biking/ swimming way. (Admittedly, I do enjoy turbokick, but I do it purely to crosstrain. And because I feel tough doing it). I love sweating and getting my heart rate up and challenging myself to run faster or longer or both. I love getting up early in the morning before the rest of the house and going for a quiet bike ride. Exercising is my way of relieving stress. It's also my drug of choice, as no stimulant I have taken up to this point has matched the feeling I get post-run--love those endorphins! I enjoy being active and get antsy if I have to sit still for too long.

Fortunately, it's not a stretch to combine my two loves: exercise and nature practically go hand in hand, unlike, say, needlepoint and horseback riding. (Ouch!) How fortunate that I live in Hampton Roads, Virginia--one of the best places to raise kids, to be active, etc. etc. So they say. I have differing opinions, which I will touch on later. For now, lets just say that I would rather be somewhere else.

But my life here has been heavily blessed: my husband and I have a nice house, two beautiful children, a steady income, and wonderful friends. As much as I would like to move somewhere closer to my roots of Wisconsin (woot woot!), we are here for at least the next 3 years as my husband finishes up grad school. So I am making an effort to embrace this place, as foreign as it feels. The blog will be my recounting of the juxtaposition of my two loves: nature and exercise and what they look like here in Virginia as a SAHM of two small children. Sounds rather nebulous, but hey! I now have a blog!